Starving

 Hooked on this song recently.

DECEMBER WAS HELLA BUSY AND I DIDNT MANAGE TO WATCH MY WEBCASTS NOR MY DRAMAS LOL. Trainings are tiring but I feel so good cos I feel i improved for both bball and vball. Training every weekday night is not fun though I cannot go home and spend time with my family. Plus my house is so inaccessible, so don't really have incentive to go back :( Miss sleeping with korkor though. Miss hugging mommy and playing with daddy too. But all is good, life is good and I love it hehehe gonna join DANCE UNCENSORED YAYEEEEE and the IHGs coming WOOHOOOOOOO. University has been great and will continue to be awesome!!!!!! ^_^

Not pride of knowledge but humility of wisdom

CA2 went ok, I think I can pass. Results gonna be out next Monday. Pls pls pls don't let me receive a phone call before results day HAHAHA. No news is good news. Life has been splendid after CA2. I totally just dropped my studies because I believe in that work play balance you know (but maybe tilted more towards play HAHAHA). But yeah it's cool man, I'll definitely watch my webcasts during December so don't worry (yes I'm telling myself).

I'm having the time of my life now (by myself) because there's no one much to play with since all ma friends are still having their finals. I love life now but December is gonna be really kinda busy. University life is good and I actually think JC life is more shag because JC we really need to follow strict timetables and attendance is taken for almost everything and there will be consequences if we're absent lol but for university it's really OTOT, you can take learning into your own hands and you pon means you don't learn means it's your problem, no one's gonna give a shit about you except maybe your good friends haha. Life is cool now and I'm looking forward to December - so many camps, trainings, playhouse, and IHG is coming soon yay!! Life is good ^_^

Butterfly pooped a spider

 

HAHAHAAHA kat shared this video on facebook and i literally LMAO cos i can relate cos i know almost every mv they played and i had some similar misconceptions LOL. Ok CA2 is tmr and I'm feeling so much more prepared than I was for CA1. Yup ok let's roll.

告白气球

Is it I just passed CA1 not long ago then CA2 is coming in a few days HAHAHA shag balls. But ok la I feel so much better and so much more prepared. Life has basically been not bad, I enjoy going to hall training sessions, I learnt so much more about bball stuff, I learnt how to discipline myself for my personal improvement during vb trainings and so on. Gonna stay hall for vacation period because KE hall stay is free if CCA hours >80h. Gonna go for more training hahaha omg my life is boring lol i just dont want to move all my stuff out of hall because it is a chore moving out then moving in again. Joined playhouse for med to dance haha hope it's gonna be fun and worth it!! Wanna join ivp too but theysay got 3 setters alr so kinda no chance. I wanna flex that blue shirt sia gdi haha maybe i try in year 2.

Missing my inner layer of post A level red hair lol very little ppl know cos it was gone in a flash HAHAHA should have gone for a brighter colour so that even if it fades, my hair will still have a shade of colour lol ok byeeeeeeeeee

Life

Life has been so hectic and busy and so very interesting and satisfying at the same time. And yes I got accepted into NUS YLL School of Medicine, after working so hard during JC!!!! ^_^

Before school even started, rag happened and I think I look like a buttefly here.

Right after rag ended, school started. Had our white coat cermemony!! :)

After white coat ceremony, was some Medicine D&D thing. Incomplete CG photo.

Missed playing vb competively. Yay champion for IFG Vb!!!!

Can't believe I managed to get into the team. It felt so good playing my first love - basketball. The seniors were so beastly good hahaha and I learnt so many new stuff, esp about game play and formations etc. Champion for IFG Bball as well :)

Finally a complete CG photo. Clinicals are so interesting and amongst the heavy workload now, it reminds me of why I wanted to do medicine in the first place.

I'm having lots of fun in uni now but I miss JC :( Really miss my clique and our funny lil habits everywhere around school. The things we always do or say. Sighpie.

Sentimental

Life has been so busy ever since Feb when I started working as a MOE relief teacher. Tons of things happened and tons of experiences gained. Hahaha that was how I knew I was never ever going to take on the career path of a primary school teacher. Nevertheless, I really enjoyed my time with my forever weird but lovable students SJ and A (you'll know if you're meant to know). They can like, be angry with me because I was a bit fiercer when I asked them to do their work, but totally give me their brightest smile 3 minutes later. Kids can be so innocent and funny at times, while other times I feel like crying because they are so naughty T_T I really hope SJ and A will stop quarreling soon and maybe even become friends. I would also love to see them in the future after they graduate, when they enter secondary school. It would be interesting to see how they would change :) And hopefully they remember me since they always hold my hand and both of them told me they love me HAHAHA. I hope they are coping well with school now. However I actually hope a bit that they miss me because I'm not there anymore ever since school reopened after the March holidays. I still hope they remain happy nonetheless :)

Uni application period. Intense-thinking-about-my-future-period. I know I'm not very academically-inclined but I guess I got really lucky (considering the amount of effort I put into A level). So now I shall apply for Medicine (as per my original plan) and hopefully I get at least the interview. I have a back up plan if I don't get Medicine but hopefully let's not need to use it HAHA. I really look forward to what the future holds ^_^

Rain

The sound of the rain sounds peaceful, as if it’s asking me how my day was.

In the raindrops of you, coloured with the faraway memories; dreaming in the rain.

Writing???

It is so hard to write a formal email to your principal who knows you and so it's like a semi-formal email wtf i don't even know how to phrase it properly. The choice of words and tone is so hard zzz. Next. I'm starting to write my personal statement for Medicine. I've been delaying it for so long because honestly speaking, I'm scared to write. I have a phobia for essays?? I always think that it may not be good enough. I really speak better than I write. But if the first stage is to write and I fail it, I won't even be able to speak???? I always think I'm so much more than I seem to be :( I should really start feeling better about my writing and start to let my thoughts flow because I've been staring at the empty Microsoft Doc for more than 15mins. Soosian pls start to trust your writing. IT CAN BE GOOD IF U PUT YOUR HEART INTO IT. Essays kill me over and over again I swear. But my grammar is not even bad??? I think this is a mental block resulting from tons of lousy GP essays. They have crushed all my confidence to write. Because of all the stupid marks that I was so concerned about last time. Uselss and lousy marks marks MARKS WHICH DON'T EVEN MATTER because A level is only one stage of life, whereas writing takes place throughout your life.

Faith, trust and pixie trust. Go for it soosian, just write whatever you want and trust that it is the best and nothing but the best :)))))



Update: Yesssssss my pen(keyboard) is flowing. Guess I'm gonna go the sincere and genuine story writing/blogging way for my personal statement ;)

Unicorns

Batam trip with the class was nice. Hong Kong trip with the losers was great. Tan Tock Seng hospital attachment was insightful and enlightening. Going back to Malaysia with my parents to take life slow with no internet was relaxing. Taiwan trip with dogs was amazing. Life after 'A' levels has been absolutely busy and thrilling at the same time but maybe I shall blog about my trips another time.

For now, I just wanna jot down some random thoughts which have been bothering me for some time. Guys normally like pretty girls who seem to have nice personalities. Or so they think they do. Even without talking to the girl or getting to know her personally, guys are able to like that girl and admire her from afar just because she is pretty and she seems like a nice person. However, is it true that they really like that girl? Or is it just a superficial crush? Some times I really wonder what type of girls certain guys truly like (e.g after getting to know the girl and she's fun and nice without being pretty). Some times I hope guys can get out of their delusional superficial crush for pretty girls who seem nice (notice the word 'seem'). If they do not even know that girl personally then how would they know she's nice lel. And some times I feel kinda annoyed because of such stereotype crushes from guys toward those pretty girls. What happens to those girls who are not superficially pretty but have beautiful hearts? What about those unglam, fun, sporty or fun-sized girls? What about hidden  beauties who do not know/like to dress up? How about straight-forward and realistic but smart girls (these girls certainly do not appear "nice" if u do not know them personally but once u talk to them, you'll realise they're nice in a different way)? And also, what about physically and emotionally stronger girls who are independent and do not need (but doesn't mean they do not want) guys to take care of them? Sigh the world is unfair. Some times I feel like it's a crime for me to be physically stronger because guys will think I can handle everything myself and will not even offer to help me do things e.g carry my stuff. Yes it's true that I can do such things myself fine but it would feel very nice if someone offered to help me. Anyway, I'll reject the help because honestly I can manage myself but I'll feel extremely happy because of the offer. It's the thought that counts.

Well, sometimes I wish I was a lil' superficially prettier. But I'm just saying it for the sake of saying it la, I don't really mean it. I'm still very happy and satisfied with who I am so ya I'm just feeling indignant for some other girls HAHAHAHA what even. Ok. This post may sound a bit biased but IT'S MY BLOG SO I WRITE WHAT I WANT LEL.