I think I recently very no life. I hate myself for being so slacky during the holidays. Maple and drama all day long (when there's no training of course). I hate it I hate it!! I hate how i have no self control and no self discipline. I hate how I only love to study right before exams, and not way before that, especially during the holidays. I hate myself for naturally turning on the computer when I have nothing to do. Aiyooooo. I hate it all, including myself T______T
“Think of it this way, Idiot. Everyone starts from Joo Koon MRT Station, the farthest end of the East West MRT Line. Some people alight at certain stations. Some people board the train and never alight. They go all the way to Pasir Ris MRT Station, then back to Joo Koon MRT Station. You know why?”
I shook my head while drumming my fingers on the table.
“People who alight at various stations have found their destinations. People who never alight have yet to find their destinations. But eventually, everyone has to alight. Many people alight at the wrong station. It doesn’t matter, because there will always be the next train. Idiot, you’ve alighted. At the right station. Now, it’s a matter of walking to your destination.”
Yo. EOY is over *claps*. Let's hope I get at least 2 A1s. If not I'll be like :(. So yeah basically, on the last day of EOY, once everyone finished their papers, they went out with friends to play/shop or went home immediately to play their favourite computer games etcetc/watch their dramas. For me? Well, I spent that day with training -____- And the day after? That's a saturday. Well, in the morning, I spent it with training too -.- irritating lololol. Really don't like training. I won't say I don't like volleyball but I really don't like fat coach's training. I think it's just me, but I don't care, I just don't like it. Sorry. I'm tired.
So, after training ended that day, went home and chionged drama. To The Beautiful You. Finished it in 2 days ^_^ (which made me feel that i have no life lol). The drama not bad, it's quite good, but I just didn't really like the ending, that's all :). So yeah, then I feel that I really have no life if i spam drama everyday. So I decided not to start on a new drama. And this afternoon I refrained from using the computer lest I would start on new drama. But it was so damn boring I really had nothing to do. Nothing at all. So I slept LOL. After waking up, I ate my dinner (yay claps wasted one whole day doing nothing (yet again)). Ok so I decided to start on new drama lol. Okcan soosian kcan. But I promised myself I'll only watch 1 to 3 episodes per day, no more than that :) Cannot chiong. Really screwing my body alarm, and it's not even the holidays yet. Ok so anyway I think I'm becoming weirder and weirder. I think I'm slowly drifting away from this world, like I'm losing hold of everything. I don't know. I think I complain too much? I don't know. I think I'm slowly sinking into my own sad world where no happiness, fun and laughter exist. I don't know. It's been a long time since I had a hearty laugh. I really don't know what I don't know anymore.
Oh my Bommie forever looking so beautifully gorgeous ♥
“Love is like a rubber band. It can either be stretched to its limit so that it can hold the most number of things, or it can be stretched till it breaks. If you stretch till it breaks, it means that the relationship will not last. The one who stretches the rubber is reality. No matter how much two lovers love each other, reality will stretch that love. Whether it holds or breaks doesn’t just depend on how strong the love is. It depends on how aggressive reality is stretching as well. If the rubber band is broken, there is no way to fix it.”
Read about this in facebook. From a guy's perspective, from a guy's words. Kinda true. Girls should read this and realise what they're doing to boys.
"Why do people say funny guys are attractive to girls? Funny guys are the ones who girls go to for understanding and good laugh. Ultimately funny guys are the ones who always get friendzoned. Nice guys are the ones who gets used over and over again. Why? Because nice guys are stupid. They forgive easily and get hurt and forgive again. Girls all want the perfect guy, an understanding, funny, mature guy. They all want the perfect guy. But the funny thing is that, they all want a understanding guy, but they are not understanding. they want a mature boyfriend yet they act like a child to every single problem. Girls all want the perfect guy for them without making an effort to try to be the perfect girl for the guy. And still girls have the cheek, the guts to create such big posts and pictures about us guys being total douchebags and assholes. Please look back and look at the big picture. Not all guys are perfect, not all guys treasure girls. Same for girls. Not all girls are perfect not all guys are perfect. Stop acting like you girls are so perfect and deserve the nicest guy, cuz ultimately you will still take advantage, your feelings will fade. You'll end up hurting the guy. But instead of saying sorry, you'll just try siff up any small problem and try to make it big and blame the guys. I'm not saying all girls are like that but many girls especially teen girls now a days. They want this '♥'. But they go for this 'şωαℊ'. And get hurt like this '</3'. And blame all guys for their own mistake."
There's just one life to live, and there's no time to waste.
I suddenly feel like writing a very very very deep post. I don't know why. I just feel that life is short, so don't waste your time on things like computer (yeah I'm telling that to myself). And so here goes.
Don't waste your time on unimportant things. Time is ticking. It won't slow down. Stop wasting time, or else you'll be sure to regret it. Treasure those around you, forget those that walked out of your life because this shows that they're not meant to be. What's yours will be yours even if you push it away. What's not yours will definitely slip out of your finger tips no matter how used you are to it, how badly you need it or how hard you try to hang on to it. It's no use. Give it up if you're holding on so hard to something that's not meant to be. What for? What's the point? What about those around you?
I heard of a story. The story is something like this, or maybe I've twisted it a little in my mind unknowingly: There's a wandering little puppy that always follows you around. You don't really care so much about it at first, but nevertheless, you turn around and pat it whenever you're in a good mood, and it will always wag its tail at you, delirious with joy. This goes on for quite some time and without knowing it, you're already used to seeing the puppy wagging its tail happily at you whenever you turn around to pat it. You think nothing much of this. But one day you turn around, it's gone. Shock, devastation. That's what you will feel. You're at a loss of what to do. You panick. Game over. You lose.
Hi I'm so tired. I know, I should stop complaining. It will all pass anyway and life goes on. The process isn't important, it's the outcome that's important. I can't cope. I mean it's true, when teachers say when you don't know something, it will keep snowballing up to become a very very serious problem with dire consequences if you don't do something to resolve your snowball. I'm really tired, I have no self discipline, no time management, no self motivation. What is wrong with me? I wasn't like this in the past. I was always full of drive, full of energy, full of motivation, and full of self discipline and determination.
I'm tired. You're tired too. Who isn't tired? What rights do I have to say that I'm tired? I'm tired? Who isn't? It's okay it's alright ss will make it. Jiayou ss wo ai ni ^-^ Nothing can bring me down, cause I will be rising from the ground, lika skyscraper. Hehehe. Vball, around 7 to 8 more months to go! Then I can fully start to bond with my studies with one body, mind and soul, without any distraction. Oh my dear studies, wait for me will ya :'( Ok I know you won't wait that long so I'll just start chasing you from now on HAHA. I might be able to do it. I should be able to do it. I can do it. I must do it. I'll do it.
Life goes on, nothing will wait. Do whatever you can, while you still can.
Wouldn't say I'm satisfied with my MYE results. Honestly speaking, I think I was super slack for MYE. Oh well, ss shall work harder for CT2. Hope so. Really hope I'll somehow understand kinematics soon enough :(
Holidays coming to an end real soon. This week last week already. And I've been lika busy, training and going out and spam dramas. I seriously think I have no life lol. I should start doing some productive things. What about all my homework??? :( Only started on them since yesterday. Completed all my 4 english newspaper thinggy. And all my other homework are UNTOUCHED like totally untouched. Die la. And recently I took aim to another 2 dramas that I want to start watching. zzzz cannot la, must finish homework first! ss where's your self discipline??
MYE over already, yayness overload. But training continue as usual already, boo-ness overload T_T Kinda miss having no trainings and kinda miss studying hahaha. Siao liao siao liao my brain is screwed. Hope the results will be good. My sciences sucked :( So yeah, I hope both my maths get A1. Ohwell pray and hope for the best, and pray that I'll continue working hard during training too. ss ftw!
MYE coming real real soon. Next week. Jiayou Soosian, mug ah!!! I want to be hard core mugger at home and get good results and act humble in school hehehe :$
(Last time Lebing make my hair until pretty pretty! :D)
Today is a fun and wonderful and magical and awesome day! My eyes are fully recharged after seeing so many handsome boys, haha won't spoil le! :P Let pictures do the talking ♥
(Handsome boy!!! But so sad cannot see clearly D:)
(MY SHAWN LEE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!!)
(With Stefany :D!!)
(With Amelia the horniest!!! :P)
(The best for the last!)
WITH MY PRETTY PRETTY LEBING DARLING ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Dance de hen hao! Must continue shaking okayyyy :P! Love ya!
Long time no blog already! Seriously very busy nowadays. CT week sucked, studied till around 1am every night. But it's worth it! :D Got back all my results except English. So far I'm really really satisfied with almost all my results :)! But as usual and as I expected, no matter how easy or hard I find the chem paper, i confirm will get C6 -_- Everytime upon 40, I CONFIRM get 21 to 22. From sec 1 till now, forever like that. So pissing can?!!?? :@
Haha k w/e, dc about studies le! (as i just typed this sentence, I realised that MYE is during April -.-) ok finefine I promise myself I'll start studying a week later. Now I only want to enjoy! ;)
Had 2.4km run on Monday. I think I run very slow leh, cannot like that!!! I die die want get A idw to get B T_T And I die die want to reach my toes LOL. Training so far was... kinda okay but yet I feel as if... idk, very unconfident of myself. Truthfully, I'm scared. Yeah I am. I really don't know what coach is thinking. I'm scared that in the end, I would have wasted two years of my life in volleyball (the first two years wasn't wasted, so yeah).
School life is kinda good and fun actually! Hadn't slept during any single lesson for very long already :) Everytime I'm bored, I'll kaqiao lebing! *push box pinch slap kick punch* HAHAHHAA.
Oh and I know it's random but I realised that I like boys with big hands! I mean like those with big palms and long fingers :D Idk why but yeah I think I'll have that "secure" feeling if they hold me, hehehehe :3 Ok shaddup soosian!!
So many tests. Physics test, Amath test, Lit test, Chinese test. I think I kinda screwed Amath a bit T_T Left one 5 mark question totally blank. Chinese test = confirm fail. Like so wtf lor the whole passage i don't fking understand it at all and EVERY SINGLE mcq question i tikam de. Nvm chinese no use anyway hahaha. I've finished reading The Chyrsalids already, so sad sia Sophie die! Walao Sophie so kelian sia. Joseph Strorm died too. Then Sally and Katherine and Mark dunno still alive annot :'( And Michael so sweet, he stayed behind for Rachel!
Ok so, lessons today were kinda fine. Pe ran 2.4km. 14min :s I want to hit 13min!! I want it so badly :( Then had Amath test. I think I will pass it, but i think I will get 20+/40 T_T After Amath, had Chinese lesson. Chinese test -_- Confirm plus chop fail la walao so hard. Then recess, played bball. After recess, Physics lesson then Lit lesson. Boring max. After school, played bball awhile with hweehoon and the boys, then went to find sherrie minying huiyi. Discussed about the Hoops of Hope thing. Hehe ttan most probably will be sponsoring us! Looking forward to the event ~ :D
I'm feeling so bored now that's why I've decided to blog. Ok whatever, I had a very happy chinese new year. Ang baos came rolling in like nobody's business. Love it. And gambling at coach's house resulted in $50+ more in my pocket wahahaha.
First time having sucha long post in a long time! :)
Changed blogskin and put up a new tagboard :) Finally had the time to use computer after 4 days. Busybusybusy. So many "present" from teachers for our cny break. And boring as usual, present = homework. Teachers should come up with some new jokes like seriously. Went out with Lebing yesterday. Bought bag together :D Then went to bugis with Weixin Manling Fenny. Bought my cny clothes (but like a bit plain :\) So nvm, I guess it'll do for this year ^^!
How am I supposed to be feeling? What am I supposed to feel? Sad? Happy? Glad? Relieved? I think I'll choose happy. My choice has always been, and will always be, happy :) It's not easy you know. I've also been trying. It's hard. And you're making it harder. Giving up has even become an option for me now, after all I've been through. What have I become? :\ But as usual, I'm gonna say, I'm not gonna give up and a mere tiny little insignificant and lousy you, can't pull me down. Continue with your scoldings/insults/whatever! Cause you know what? I don't give a fucking shit. I don't let myself down so easily. So yeah, fighting! :D
Smile, through all the unhappiness :)! Because everything will be fine in the end.
Long time no blog, had been busy. And so, hi! :) Lol my tagboard can't work anymore. Shoutmix not free anymore, so sad. So if anybody tagged or anything, sorry I didn't see!
Haha so yeah, school reopened and all. Training continued as usual. School is fine actually. Not that bad ^^ Yesterday was friday. Friday friday gotta get down on friday ~ LOL k shaddup. Friday was a fine day, since I'm somewhat counted as dismissed already once recess started! Hehe cause their humans period is my free period :) But I so kind to stay in class and pei my toopid new tudi! Lebing = 了冰 = Liao bing = too hot = 水了= shui liao! Water oledy :P Kk idk what to write already so bye and have a nice day :)!
It's time for a reality check. I think I'm way behind. It's okay, I'll pick up.
