Round and round

Yesterday, kinda celebrated Hari Raya at cikgu roslinda's house. The food was quite (Y). Watched Final Destination 5 at cikgu's house, lolol now everyone is obsessed with it and they keep talking about it. Chill people. :D

Hahaha k so today, went through hell again ;o fitness training. 3.2km run then run the freaking tall 16 storey hdb building, 4 times ._. Shalln't elaborate much, except that I'm tired ttm and tmr is teacher's day, so i'm gonna go back kps to seeseelooklook :) Toodles.

Take picha with me as a memory can? ^^

It doesn't matter anyway. Does it?

Whether I believe, is not the problem now. The problem now is, there's no point even if I believe or not.

MBS hotel super high, tall, freakishly skyhigh LOL. The lift go up to 50+ storeys like so freaking fast, not even 5 seconds then shoot up and reach already. The view from the skypark of MBS was spectacular, super awesome! But a little scary at first, haha.

We went to swim and slack in the swimming pool at skypark, then chit chat and talked about lots of things. Swam till 10pm+ (i think) , then it became super cold. Went back to hotel to shower and etc, then went out to eat with fenny, ml and sj. Took cab, actually want to go to newton, so the uncle say he charge us $7 to go to newton. Then when on the way there, he suddenly ask us is it we want to go and eat. We say ya, then after that, he talked about some weird night market/cafe (????) that is very nearby and have 80+ stalls for us to eat while newton only have 50+ stalls. So we were like, oh ok lor then we go the night market(????) for $7 too. After alight from the cab, then realised that $7 is like dam freaking ex because the cab only travelled for around 4 minutes. -.- k lol tio scam.

Ate stingray+fried rice. Then walked back to hotel. 2am + already. Some pigs already asleep! :P Wanted to watch final destination 4, then waited for the lappy to load like so long, i lie on bed awhile then accidentally sleep already lol. K i lazy type already I go watch on the fringe already :D wo de ian <3

It's all in your hands now.

You're not mine to lose, yet I feel like I'm losing you.

I've thought about things and conclusion is that I won't think so much anymore :P Today I woke up quite early around 10am I think. Then I bo taiji zo, bored to the very very max. Whole day no plan anything. Whole day rot at home, played LoL awhile (so much more fun and easier than dota!) then now downloading LoL into "my" (unofficial) laptop. I want to try getting addicted to LoL then to dota. Cause I really wonder what's with boys and dota. Dota steals boys away from girls, like seriously. Or am I just the only one who feels this way? o.o

Tmr going out with clique again, yayness! Overnighting at Marina Bay Sands Hotel Tower 3 or something :) Super looking forward to tmr :D! Food+snacks+drinks+funness , love you girls ttm forever ♥

Being happy, is all i ask for.

忍住不哭，我要忍住不哭。

该说的，都说了。不该说的，也都说了。

该做的，都做了。不该做的，也都做了。

我说和做了那么多，难道你真的不懂吗？我累了。我不想，也不会再做或说任何东西了。我觉得我已经经历了。剩下的，全都靠你了。决定是你的。如果你懂，你就该用行动来表示给我。如果你不懂或不在乎，那就算了吧，我也不再等你了。:)
I have a life to get on with, so I'm not gonna wait much longer. I'm not taking any initiative or giving any more hints anymore. Make your decision quick as I'm already picking myself up from the fall. :) We don't have to be boy/girlfriend (i wont accept even if you asked anyway). We don't have to like each other as in that like. We just have to be normal friends that talk to each other with smiles on our faces. Since we were happy last time without liking each other, why not we be like last time and continue being happy now? :\

Or maybe I think too much. Maybe it's best for me to not give a dam anymore, and just stick to how things are now. Maybe you're contented with how things are now? I see you laughing happily all the time. Perhaps I should just follow the flow and continue looking at your back view, looking at the now happy you.

I really hope you don't read blogs lol maybe you won't even give a damn even if you know I'm talking about you anyway.

fkedupz.

sry i need to spam a bit of vulgarities or else i takboleh tahan zzzz fkuped la knnbolj humjikiacbkiaknsshitface idontevenknowwhyilikedyouinthefirstplace. i think i was a bit blind uh hahaha. bhfidbsifnasjb gfamgasefuQ3TUIGNJI hahaha actually yes i was very blind now that i tihnk of it. butstill, you fkersiaplaywithppl'sfeelingsyouthinkveryfunisit? funny ah?!?!?! fkfkfkkfkfk la i feel so fkedup like seriously k sua nvm.

Actually I feel quite fine now. It wasn't really that bad anymore. I guess I still made the right choice to tell you after all. At least I faced up to my past feelings. But that's all in the past. All my feelings for you turned into anger and irritation and annoyance already. But now that I think of it, I didn't really like you a lot after all. Wts did I like you for anyway? You're a scary person. You don't tell anyone anything. You keep everything to yourself, all your feelings and secrets etc. Now that I think of it, I don't even know how i even managed to get along with you last time. But oh well, since everything is in the past, I shall forget about everything and take everything in my stride now :) ! Actually also never really diu a lot of lian. I'm a brave girl leh! Everything is fine. Streaming will settle everything :D !

哭过就好。不要再想了。没事的。Soosian 加油！You're not even worth my attention anyway :)

It has been a long time.

(I agree to the very, very max. Why can't you just understand? I like you but I only want to be friends with you because that makes me happy. I only ask for you to tell me that you like me back and that we're friends.)

Your answers are so contradicting.

Went out with Fenny today. Firstly we took mrt to collect stocks (encountered some major problem yo!) then we mrt-ed to somerset and walked to scape! I follow Fenny 姐姐 and never get lost leh, miracle :P! Hehe. Flea @ Scape! At first see like so little thing, but slowly walk walk and see got more and more stalls at downstairs! :D Bought a bag and a shirt and some accesories. Then bused 77 to bukit batok cause couldn't find a bus straight to cck/yew tee flyover. Mrt-ed from batok to yew tee then home and makan ~ Tired + haven't bath + tmr got school. I'm feeling so ~!#$%^&* of school tmr. I don't know what will happen. I guess I shall find out. And I wish I had more courage.

Affection? Bullshit.

Okay, i get the point. But at least, you could've bothered to tell me the truth yourself, rather than me trying all means and ways to find out more. It's not like i can't handle the truth right? Don't forget, I'm always a cheerful and strong minded person. I won't be affected by what you say, as long as it's the truth and there's a reason behind it. But still, lies. Everything you did, everything you said, everything about you, about "us" , all was a big fat LIE. So you know something? I'm gonna fuck off from your fucking life. I'm feeling so fked up. Why even get close to me last time in the first place? If you ever decide to give me truthful reasons, I'll always be here to listen and "UNDERSTAND", then say "fuckyou :)" Ok la maybe I won't be so vulgar and fierce. I haven't used any vulgarities (to scold ppl) in quite some time already. I'm not going to break my promise to myself just because of you. Insignificant you. :)

I really, really wonder. I seriously, want an explanation. Tell me what went wrong.

Time after time

I don't wanna take a ride on another emotional roller coaster. Spare me please. Just tell me what's on your mind. 我真的猜不到, 也不想再猜了, 我真的不知道你在想什么. 告诉我好吗?

Fluttered and faded almost instantly.

If i die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river at dawn and send me away with the words of a love song.

Seriously disappointed with myself. Half-slacked throughout the whole day when my original plan was to study for the whole day, whole heartedly and focusedly. FAIL LA I FAILED MYSELF :( planning to mug till 1am kthxbai :) Looking forward to end of CT. :D

Sunshine.

( wx and sj is gone :(!!!! )

Happy birthday to Huiying, happy early birthday to Xiaolei! Me love you two very much, and me love everybody else very much toooooo!! Hope you two enjoyed our celebration :P Although i know the events we planned aren't SUPER exciting, but what matters is that we had fun and laughter in the process of it! And what counts is also the sincerity :D! Love you all ♥ !

vinegar for lunch :(

I want to walk through that scenario(picture above), hand in hand with you. It would be the most beautiful moment in my life. But, too bad dreams don't come true.

I smell vinegar. And the smell is coming from me. 我在吃醋! 怎么办, 这是我第一次吃醋, 很酸 leh LOLOL. Shiatz you :((((((((((( Me really gonna don't like you oledy. T_T

You are just a memory now.

OHMAIGAWD. 美樂加油 (Love Keeps Going) seriously super nice. Each episode just keeps getting more interesting and more exciting and more nice! Srsrly, this is a drama that everybodeh must watch! Nice totheverymax ♥