It doesn't even matter

Hi, I feel so dam guilty k. Scammed coach. Disappointed in myself. But after all I did, after how hard I worked(kind of ;x), coach still crushed almost every single bit of confidence I have in myself :\ But you know what? That's not gonna bring me down. It's okay, it's alright, I know I'm better than ahem, and I think everyone prefers me to ahem too *bhb haha*. So I shall hold on and continue to fight for what's rightfully mine, and not let you give it to her just because it's her last year.

Minying, cheer up ok, don't lose faith :) Continue to believe, continue to fight, don't lose hope! It's not over yet :) Me as your throwingballz parter also not bad what! Haha you can teach me spiking I can teach you setting. Think of the positive! ;) Fighting ok! You can't give up before I give up, because I'm supposed to be the weaker one. And since I haven't given up, you must continue to fight with me! :D

And yup, it's 4.30am and I'm supposed to like, sleep, cause I'm going to overnight with clique at marina bay sands today till friday and I need to wake up like maybe, 12pm today? Meeting them girls at 1.30pm! :) Heheh. Then when I come home, pack, sleep, and it's saturday already, and I'm really gonna flyflyfly to Japan! :D

Reminisce

Hi I'm bored and I just dug through my thousand year old pictures and screenshots of audi and I decided to upload them and delete them from my computer because very waste space XD All pictures are year 2009 and older.

(From audi like when I was p4/p5)

(Hi fenny look at the difference!)

(FENNY 9 IS YOU LOL. me 10 me 10.)

(Last time p6 at roof garden)

(p5/p6 at yew tee carpark!)

(Last time during p5/p6 at cck park!)

(188bpm? think so.)

(love party haha. year 2008!)

(look at the hacker on top, z)

(That time got bug, npc score same as our individual score. All our scores higher than npc!)

(The most hearts i ever got in club2)

(reminisce and memory! ex jr of dD- last time)

(188bpm?)

(My highest score for 188bpm, taken in year 2009. i really miss the past dashDASH-)

(that's zuqi and calista and me LOL)

(couple ranking 222)

(lp la haha)

(egg yolk ring! couple ranking 123)

(caladium ring, couple ranking 100)

(just joined back audi after i quitted during p6?? first time i chained so high after that. taken during early sec1)

(yay violet ring haha happygirl97, taken during p6 i think)

(with angela aka kaya! i miss you T.T)

Keep believing.

YES MY APPEAL IS SUCCESSFUL YAYY I GOT INTO COMBI 4, BP ROCKS :) Ok hi I'm back from Malaysia. Didn't learn as much as I did learn last year. That's not the point. I'll just try my best and the end result won't disappoint me, no matter what it it :)

Maybe volleyball's just not my thing :'(

Please come back

Haven't blogged for quite a long time. I didn't get into my combi 4 because not enough people chose combi 4, so end up combi 4 isn't even opened at all, totally nobody got in. I'm appealing to combi 1, hope I'm successful! Appeal results out 2 December 8pm, but I 2 December around 6am going JB with teammates already! :( Gonna ask my brother to help me check. Please please please let my appeal be successful!

Today Semi-finals with Dunman Sec. I was totally shocked when coach sub me in. Didn't expect that at all. I was so unprepared so yeah, screwed a few points :'( After match, went to school to bball with donovan and jack. It rained after awhile. Went to lot to da bao ananas (cheapo me!) then went Fenny's house to take umbrella and went to fetch her from stagmont ring cause it was raining, haha! Ate my ananas and tried on the lenses at her house. After that slacked on the bed awhile then off to find Manling while she's rebonding! :D
Then went home when she's done, that's all k bye :D

Never before.

 
Took a long hard look, at my life. Lost my way while I was fighting the time. A big black cloud, stormy sky.
Followed me, oh I was living a lie. So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness, when all your nights are starless,You're running outta hope.
But I found the strength inside to see, Found the better part of me. And I'll never let it go. I've come a long, long way,
made a lot of mistakes, But I'm breathin’, breathin’. That's right and I mean it, mean it. This time I'm a little run down,
I've been living out loud, I could beat it, beat it. That's right, cause I'm feelin’, feelin’
INVINCIBLE

Because I still love you

Even though when they make you angry make you "hate" them, you also cannot really "hate" them one because you know that truly they still care about you and in their perspective what they do is "for your own good". Then after awhile everything will return back to normal even though that tiny fainting memory of what they did still remain there, but you'll learn to get over with it and forget about it since what's done cannot be undone and at that point of time you will love your mummy and daddy - Zuqi.

This time I'm not leaving without you

Streaming website open already. Can choose your combinations already. My parents totally bo chup, they just say they will support me no matter what my decision is. I wanted to go to triple science since all my sciences got A1 but then all my friends going physics and bio. Not a single one going triple science. And so I thought that if i don't go triple science, my next option in my mind would be physics class as I suddenly understand and love physics and find that physics is so simple. Yay limqing going physics too i think, and most of the babayaga boys going physics. And i think vivian helena weishan wanqin they all going physics too. But yet again, hweehoon minying sherrie all want go bio class. I want to be in the same class as them :'( I'm fine with bio but yet again, my brother say bio will be super difficult and even a smartypants like my brother got B3 for bio.

So right now I'm in a dilemma, mummy I don't know what to choose :( I really want to go triple (i think). I hated physics but now i love physics the most. I once loved bio the most but my love for physics overtook my love for bio (but i still love bio a lot a lot). Chem can go die la if can drop chem i confirm drop LOL :P Friends are important. Studies also important. Thinking ahead for the future also important. Everything also important. What is this!?!?!? So conclusion is, I think I'll take bio as actually I'm fine with any combi hahahaha. Hweehoon and minying and sherrie going bio. I think huihui and megan going bio too. YES I THINK I'M GOING BIO :) hope so.

Words you said when you left

Ouch.

Today is drama day! I'm gonna go xinmsn to watch the last 2 episodes of ai that i missed, the last 3 episodes of 四个门牌一个梦 that i missed. I'm also going to watch the first one hour of 画皮 that i missed yesterday. Then I'm going to chiong Fugitive Plan B then Sunshine angel :) !

Somehow I'm beginning to dislike training more and more. Coach is so FUNNY. Training you want us to be serious, cannot smile. Fine, we give our serious face with no expression. Then you say we black face during training -.- wtf, smile cannot, no expression cannot, then what you want? Still say what you got read psychological(?) books. Pls la, teenagers and adult think differently ok. Generation different liao, the books may not be up to date -.- You long time never scold me already like seriously! Idk what to think. You say if you never scold someone for very long means either that person nothing to scold about, or else is you give up on that person already. Have you given up on me? :'( I won't give up on myself though :)!

In the pouring rain.

Hi. You. Yes you. Go away. Stop stalking me. I'm sorry for letting you get the wrong idea. I was really posting about someone else. Don't hate on me :(. I didn't even do anything wrong. Don't hate on me over a boy. It's not worth it right? I only go for tall, handsome, muscular and caring boys. :)

See, my type :)

Best I ever had

Exams are over yay. Training started already, boooo! So many things that I want to do! Just writing down so that I won't forget.

1. Do either a mmv/short story
2. Watch Fugitive Plan B
3. Watch Why Why Love
4. Play dota
5. Play blackshot
6. Play LoL
7. Play Audition!
8. Download Maple as soon as possible!
9. Play guitar more often (esp must master the song 'what about now')
10. Learn the complete version of cannon in c on piano
11. Go shopping around the whole sg with clique (my clothes are depleting)

Read through some old convos. Realised a lot of things. Seriously. Best I ever had :') ,

You thought wrong.

EOY. Jiayou. Pump oil. Add oil. Stop daydreaming. Stop thinking about other things. Get this whole thing over and done with then i can enjoy all i want! Hehehe, I feel happy and cheerful everyday and I don't even know why. I'm glad I'm me :D

Sometimes I really want to tell others to get away from you, I really want to tell them that you've been closest to me than you've ever been to any other girl :( Some things, once lost, can never go back to the way it was. Once lost, nothing is or ever will be the same again. Regrettable, but always and forever true.

It's okay, it's alright.

When I was primary 5 and when I'm sec 2. Yay hair growth (Y)

Omg omg damn funny o.o My computer that was spoiled a year ago, just got repaired recently. So now i using my repaired computer. I dug through some of my old documents and pictures and all that, and i was so shocked can!! Still got a lot more old pictures that I think I will be posting them up some time soon :P

So anyway, recently very busy. Next few days and weeks also will super busy. Volleyball and examinations, siansation max.

Friday was awesome! Rebirth rocks to the very super max can ♥ ! Like a real concert like that, everyone jump jump scream scream ahhhh! Ok la I actually quite proud of my brother :) Good job la k lil' brother :P After the mid autumn thinggy ended, went to lot to watch midnight movie, smurfs, with zuqi, yaylogy. Luv her. Let pics do the talking.

Hehe playing with my phone's effects.

I like this one very much ♥

Stranger, so cold.

Yesterday had fitness training. Lifted weights (the half squat damn heavy!!!!) until 5pm then went to the behind hockey field's basketball court to dash dash. 5 rounds 60 seconds. 4 rounds 45 seconds. 3 rounds 32 seconds. 2 rounds 20 (or is it 18?) seconds. 1 round 8 seconds. Ahh me and Sherrie failed once, at the 1 round 8 seconds. Then re-run the second time pass already :) Then felt super tired. Queued with Minying for subway at yew tee because got 1 for 1. QUEUED FOR FREAKING 2 HOURS +++++++ LIKE OMG THE QUEUE LIKE OMYGODLY LONG CAN. Queued until 9pm++ then finally done. Dabao and faster went home (hehe minying's angry pig still with me :P)

Then today my whole body aching especially arms, thighs and back. During CME lesson puffer was like so damn serious. He shared a lot of things with us, that he had experienced in the past. Omg I really shock dao at some things sia. Then recess played ball, blahblahblah usual stuffs, then school ended. Lazy elaborate already, going out to yew tee now, byebye.

Don't think about what COULD'VE been. If it really COULD'VE been, now, it would already BE. But since now it is NOT, that is why it is classified under "could've been" instead of "it IS".

I don't know what we are. Sometimes i feel like we're friends, last time I feel like we're more than friends but now I feel like I'm just a stranger to you. I hope I cross your mind once in awhile just so that I won't feel pathetic for thinking of you all the time. It's all so amusing, isn't it?