Merry Christmas

Cause we're young and we're reckless

We'll take this way too far 

It'll leave you breathless

Or with a nasty scar

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

But I got a blank space baby

And I'll write your name

MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YAY. School is starting soon boo.

Come back home

I have been so so busy this entire holiday. I haven't really started on my homework. I am so screwed but it's ok I swear I will chiong finish all my homework before school reopens. It's all about self-discipline. It's all in the mind.

Firstly, I went back to Miri for 5 days. All I did was sleep, eat, shit. Literally. I ate like 5 meals a day HAHAHA. I think I gained weight so I shall try to control my diet. Erm. Just kidding. There will never be a day you see Soosian control her diet. If not she won't be Soosian.

Next, look at the picture on top and below. I went to participate in the JB Rex U17 with my dearest bpvb girls as BPGHS alumni and we became xiaochampions! We seriously had lots of fun and laughter and the 'xiao' game is going strong (inside joke yo). I experienced so much for this trip because this is the first time I played every. single. game. I am super tired and I have never deuced until 31-30 points before and I never knew there was this sudden death thing. I have never played 5 sets before. And all these, happened during this trip. I also made a terrible mistake which I felt so sorry for. I was too sad to cry and too sorry to apologise. But I can't turn back time to undo that mistake and I can't cry because I needed to continue playing. So I got over it and moved on and pretended nth happened HAHAH. Ok la obviously I felt terribly guilty and I know I'm a sinner but I really think I leveled up by getting over it and not crying over it. Luckily we still won that game in the end!! Phew.

I'm really grateful to have been a part of this trip and I have learnt and experienced so much. Too much for me to put everything into words. I can only say that I feel much more prepared for A div next year! I also feel that I've grown as a person and I've also developed mentally :) I really love this team. I really do <3 

Deer

Finally found the title of this song which I've heard so many times before and I like it so much.

"I want to open my eyes to your text every morning

I want to fall asleep with your voice at the end of the day

On the weekends, I want to hug you in front of a lot of people as if I’m showing off"

Blank space

Virgin try at Strictly Pancakes with my dearest boy today.

爱情

Hey little monk, you look lost, where's your temple?

Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses. I think I have caught fire with you. Do not offer me water though. Hahahaha.

Hands help you up, pat you on the back, or wipe your tears from your face. Hands give. Hands receive. And like hearts, hands show kindness best when they're open. You're my hands. So help me do all my housework and homework thanks LOL. Hehe I'm just kidding.

I love my monk. Yes, mine! :D Sixth-ed four days ago, and still going strong.

Shake it off

First of all, I am SO proud to say that PW IS ALMOST CLOSE TO COMPLETED. We have handed in our WR. Officially. Like finally. Although there were a lot of printing and last minute errors and we wasted a lot of money, I guess all this is a learning process and I'm glad to say that I actually had fun. Self-entertainment and entertaining my group is also a new kind of fun. Although it was super depressing and annoying some times, I think that my group is actually generally okay and all got smooth mouth. Smooth talkers. I like them (well, almost all of them)! Thanks for everything and thanks for cooperating with me, especially we, the SAIKANG WARRIORS. Ok I really love those two girls. I really don't know how I would have survived PW without them. Ups and downs are normal. I'm really glad everything is going to be over soon. This Friday. Best group for OP let's go!

Next, I had fun with the official most onz and steadyz ajvb girls this Saturday, volunteering for RFYL aka the Zombie Run. Getting assigned to the finishing tent is seriously the best job on earth man, as compared to those route marshal jobs. Route marshalling is HORRIBLE I TELL YOU, TERROR SIA. We sing song talk cock pop to the beat and spam selfies and basically just had fun!! Playing beach volleyball improptu with those angmohs was also an interesting experience (and pst, there was a hot guy with six packs).

Today is Chinese A Level paper and yeah, I don't know how I did. I didn't feel very good after the paper but I didn't feel bad too. If I get B that means my compo was out of point. But let's hope all will be fine and I'll get my A :)

This is the longest post I've posted since 999 years?? Hehehe ending off with my medal. Not mine but mine :P

Happiness will follow

I've become so used to you that I can't imagine what I would ever do without you.

Still can't feel the stress for promos yet. Still watching my dramas and playing dota. Oh no. I think I'm done for for math. I really hope everything goes well. Although I can't say I like to study, I really feel good and happy when I get good results. I need to get good results!! T_T I really can't stand to face Ms (Angeline) Toh again with shitty (to her) results. I'm gonna be traumatised for life. Nevertheless, come at me promos!!!!

I'm happy to have met loser club in my jc life because they are so fat and cutezie ^_^

Dandelion

Promos coming. Pls let me feel the stress soon LOL.

The only guy

The only guy who judges me.

The only guy who cares for me the most.

The only guy who believes me no matter what.

The only guy who always puts me as his number 1 priority.

The only guy with stamps on his eyes.

The only guy who think I'm cute.

The only guy who thinks I'm pretty.

The only guy who thinks I'm good in whatever I do.

The only guy who is willing to buy anything and everything for me.

The only guy who thinks I'm worth it.

The only guy who supports me in whatever I do.

The only guy whose hands let mine fit in them perfectly.

The only guy I want to hold my hands.

The only guy I want to hug me tight.

The only guy I want to kiss me senseless.

The only guy who loves unconditionally.

The only guy I want to be with.

Everything

I give all my love to you.

Hi Yiting stop stalking me cos i won't be posting proper posts for awhile HAHA.

Eyes, nose, lips

Tablo never fails to amaze me with his lyric writing skills and sexy rap.

The fault in our stars

I've heard it a million times in my head. "He can do better. He deserves so much more." In reality, that's right. But sometimes when you love, you love the person for who they are despite what they've done right or wrong to you. That's what love does to you. It's not about who you deserve. It's about who you want. Who you need. And who you love.

Little things

"Your hand fits in mine like its made just for me

But bear this in mind, it was meant to be"

Spring

"I'm more me when I'm with you."

Cherry blossom

All of me loves all of you

Perfectly independent but better together. A bonus. I've found my fairy tale :)

We accept the love we think we deserve

"Love is a many splendored thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love."

Thoughts

Thinking a lot nowadays.

Close your eyes

Saw this on askfm.

"What's it like to be a girl? Doesn't seem like a big deal to me"

"haha lol u must be crazy then.

girls have to deal with:

being too tall
being too short
thinking your too fat
thinking your too skinny
acne
covering your acne
doing your makeup perfectly
smudging your eyeliner
being called "cake face" or "barbie"
having small boobs
having big boobs
having sore boobs
running with boobs
worrying about showing too much boobs
worrying about showing to less boobs
going to public with no bra on accident
making sure ur bra doesn't show
deciding what to wear every morning
wearing a same pair of clothes too often
straightening ur hair
curling ur hair
braiding ur hair
doing ur hair in general
shaving ur legs
shaving ur arm pits
shaving ur vagina
missing that one spot when u shave
painting ur toes
painting ur nails
repairing them cuz they chipped
tweezing ur brows
tweezing ur mustache
forgetting chapstick when u go out
forgetting gum when u go out
worrying about going on dates
worrying about what to wear on dates
being sad cuz u don't go on dates
being sad cuz he took 2 hours to text back and u took 2 minutes
being sad cuz he didn't text back
overthinking on what to respond to his text
periods
cramps
birth control
wearing the right jewelry
having ur first kiss
having ur first boyfriend
fighting with ur boyfriend
having ur first breakup
being dumped
wondering what u did wrong
dealing with bitches
dealing with friends
fighting with friends
losing ur friends
crying about boys
crying about cramps
crying about a pair of shoes u didnt get
crying because ur too fat
crying because ur too skinny
crying because ur too ugly
not believing him when he says ur beautiful
feeling invisible
being called
whore
slut
cunt
bitch
ugly
fat
stick
weird
faggot
hoe
when u dress nice up for a guy at school but he's absent
worrying about girls flirting with him
worrying about him flirting with girls
being cheated on
being lied to
being backstabbed
being misunderstood
being judged by strangers
being judged by ur parents
not being able to eat whatever u want
wanting longer hair
wanting a different hair color
wanting whiter teeth
wanting perfect skin
wanting a perfect body
not fitting jeans
when there's a shirt u love but they don't have ur size
never feeling good enough
being called a whore when ur a virgin
losing ur virginity
drinking
smoking
doing drugs
trying to keep secrets
revealing secrets
people not forgiving u
bad haircuts
bad hair days
depression
anxiety
anorexia
bulimia
eating too much
eating too less
swearing too much
being clumsy
being a bitch when u have to
dealing with a bitch u have to be nice to
finding the perfect clothes for summer
finding the perfect bikinis for summer
finding the perfect clothes for winter
finding the perfect boots for winter
getting a tan
being too dark
being too pale
being sunburned
looking enormous in winter clothing
having bad breath

yeah being a girl isn't a big deal :-)"

So awake when I'm asleep

Life is good. But will all good things last? Yes, as long as you grab hold of them.

I'm gonna make the best of everything woohooooo.

Happy

I'm happy.

Destination

Hello! Making decisions are tough. Really really tough. Made 2 important deicisions during jan and feb - JC and my CCA in jc. I hate making decisions, but let's just hope that everything goes well ^_^ So far I'm well and happy but nevertheless, I miss secondary school :(

New year, new beginning

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I never knew what to write for my new year resolution and similarly for this year, I still don't know what to write. So let's just say that I hope I can get below 10 for my L1R5, go into AC/AJ, be diligent in mugging and excel in my studies :) Guess it's kinda lame but ya HAHAHA