有沒有認真過

可只要你快樂

我難過又算什麼

大不了就痛哭一會就好了

會不會有一天

你又忽然的出現

想當初相戀那天

親吻我的側臉

你現在好嗎

好想再打個電話

可內心的驕傲讓我放不下

I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand

I know I'm probably better off all alone

Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute

And it was always on your terms, I waited on every careless word

Hoping they might turn sweet again like it was in the beginning

The 1

But we were something, don't you think so?

Roaring 20s, tossing pennies in the pool

And if my wishes came true

It would've been you

In my defense, I have none

For never leaving well enough alone

But it would've been fun

If you would've been the one

I should've acknowledged it earlier. I saw it coming since awhile ago. But I think I was too scared to face it, to lose someone dear again. Well, I guess better late than never! It was nice while it lasted and I don't regret it. Ah it's been awhile since I had to give things so much thought. Life has been quite simple and straightforward the past many years. Did I really lose a bit of myself along the way since I was with people for a long time? Maybe, perhaps really maybe. Time to take a break and rediscover myself and learn to love myself again :)

还在期待会有奇迹出现

我们都傻

傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出

还在期待会有奇迹出现 

I actually know it. I have realised it for awhile. I just refused to believe it and I refused to acknowledge it. When am I going to embrace the truth? Next time, one more time, one last try, I always tell myself. It was so good and so great for a short period of time, and I really thoroughly enjoyed and appreciated that. But it has slowly faded to just (lack of) effort which stems from the (lack of) emotions. Are all those really dead and gone, all in the past? I still cannot believe that everything faded and ended so fast when they were going good for awhile. This is so heartbreaking.

Where did it go wrong? Is it my fault? What could I have done differently to maintain things when they were beautiful? If I could rewind time, what should I have done more and what should I have not done? Who will have the answer to these? I really do not know. But what I do know is that I have tried my best, and I realised that my efforts have ironically been pushing you away further. Hence logically speaking I should stop. But if I stop, that may or may not bring you back but I myself will drift away. Should I let go? I am afraid to let go. Will you let go? I am afraid that you will let me go. So I will just let it be and see where the tide takes us.